It Hurts

love hurts
Originally uploaded by Brandon2009.

Wheather it be pain, fondness, love, my back it all hurts. But it hurts the most when you really find out your not liked.
Repeatedly, I keep asking or get asked out by the same type of guys, the same bunch of losers. Ones who are unsure of themselves and their situation, ones who just want sex, others who could careless to say more then a couple of words...I have really bad taste in guys.
I think to myself once in a while well this guy should work out so and so, and in the end I'm sitting alone trying to figure what happened and what was wrong
The guy I finally told my feelings too, was a waste of time. It was meaningless. Why would it take a person more then 3 days to make up their mind if they like you or not.

Three DAYS....what the fuck

Even if they were considering all posiblities and yada yada, it doesnt take three fucking days to say yes or no. I'm just going to tell him tommorrow, "Sorry for what I said. Forget I said anything at all." I know its not possible for ppl to forget things, especially likee that, but you have to be good at pretending. And that's exactly what I'm gonna do. Just bull-shit my way through it...just like everything else I have to bullshit my way through.
I can't believe that I was so stupid, oh sorry, that I'M STILL SO STUPID, when it comes to guys. They all seem different but in the end they are the same. I swear to god this is the last time I cry over any guy. I swear to God.
I'm sick of having feelings for others, tired of crying over others,I dont want to do it anymore.
I was one of the main activist for Prom in my little circle of friends, but fuck that I'm not going. I'm either stay at home and sleep or go on a road trip, but I'm not going. Maybe its just my emotions just talking but I could really care less about Prom.

I dont know anymore, once again for the fourth or fifth time. I just dont want to care anymore. I dont want to be hurt again.