Take it off and let it drop...

Take it off and let it drop...
Originally uploaded by BidWiya.

There can be no rainbow without a cloud and a storm.
-John Heyl Vincent

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go. Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it....
-BidWiya

I feel crappy. As usual I heard unwated news, what people saw over the holiday break. I dont know why I'm still effected, I dont want to be, but I am. I feel so low and ugly (not physical appearence ugly, but as in unwanted.) I guess one can calling me an undecided waivering person....or simply emotional. I just feel hurt by indirect things that have nothing to do with me anymore, but I guess its just because I'm bad at forgetting. Really bad at forgetting. I remeber everything, small details of even unimportant things. I wish I was more forgetful, so I wont remember such events in my life. Not in the most upbeat mood anymore, which isnt all too hot because I have to be concentrating on so many other things right now. Bad timing completly, well any other time would have been bad, but right now is the worse. Anyways I'm done.