Saturday, January 28, 2006

Days off...

So starting today I get about 4 days off of like evrything, school and work. So sweet, but my dad wants me to learn new things instead of going out, so I decided when he takes me to chapters tomorrow to get some DIY books, some fiction, a profile, and a mag. The should keep me busy, like everyhting else in the world does, lol.
What I also think to be a good idea for me is to start making a listing of all the things I need to get done, even if I have to post it on the wall and around the house it should help me get stuff done, lol.
Also today I saw Hoodwinked, it was so great, but also remmeber that I'm easily amused, so yea... I sw it with my sister and it was so great because we, at certain points were the only ones laughing out loud, it was so sad, lol.

Friday, January 27, 2006

Hunted


Hunted
Originally uploaded by noqontrol.
I found my prom dress yesturday!!! Congrats to me...I'm so happy. It's a pale pink and it has lace at the top and a little safety pinned flower near my tummy. It's the cutest dress ever. Simple but sooo cute.

So yeah my Prom Dress..only $110!!!

Now need shoes, purse, make up, limo, spa, boy, and jewerly.

I'll eventually finish all my task on that list....eventually

Guess hwat I have the whole 2nd Season of O.C....I'm so happy...*tear*

Oh and I'll post a picture of the dress...probably when I get it next Friday or Saturday. It's so lovely...only katy has seen it so far.

Ciao...off to watch the O.C the whole season I missed *tear*

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Lazy, not good at all


Lazy
Originally uploaded by skittlebeenie.
So I was just on break with one of my managers here at Staples and another associate, we some how go on to the discussion of secondary/post-secondary schools. He said a lot but there were a few main points.

Fuckit! I was just interrupted by some fat annoying loud mouthed bitch. Main I should be her. I'm trying to answer her fucking question and she decideds to pounce on me while I'm trying to answer her question. She should go fucking die!

Anyways few main points:

1) Don't listen to your guidence counsellors, they'll fuck you up. They know shit. Don't listen to anyone who is not you and doesnt know what you are capable of.

2) Be prepared to move out of this country after graduation, you wont get a decent job or be successful over here.

3) Start thinking of your plan for after graduation and do it asap. It will come sooner then you think

4)Your 20's go buy so fast. your 30's go so slow...be prerpared.

He also told us the story of when he ran into his guidance counsellor, he went to him and told him, "Hey Mr. Gole. Your a fucking asshole, you messed up a lot of kids" then he listed the names he said and everything. It's reallty sad, he 's not doing what he really enjoys, he just has to make a living.He wanted to go into medicine but he listened to the aboved mention guidence counsellor who told him not to. He has six years worth of school and he's now just the manager of staples; he was kind of wired after telling the story.

So he then said I'm not tyring to scare or discourage you, I'm just telling you that you need a plan, that is all. Like I could go back to school and get another career, but I have a wife and a kid at home and I cant sell our house to go back to school, then he went on to tell us what another one of our employees do really, which is animation but he's working here.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

False Love


plastic love.
Originally uploaded by retuta.
What is the point of having sex before your married? Especially if you dont even believe in the relationship that you are in, can we even call it a relationship? How about a sex fling? CAn we call you a whore?

No I'm not just talking about this happening with one partner, but some how, mariculosly, this has happened with about three and about going on to #4, less then two weeks after breaking up with another person.

What am I suppose to call you, a fucking saint, fuck no! Friend or not. I try to reason, pros and cons of what she already knows about. Yet, she sees sex as a ways to get rid of her horniness. What the holy flying fuck!

No sex is not a need at this age. It's somehting you want; get it fucking staright. If oyu are gonna tell me your going to have sex, say because you WANT it not because you NEED it. Your making a fucking excuse for your actions, when there is no readily available to you.

Horniness is a thing that subsides on its own anyways, there is no need to go find something to shove up your whole whether human or not because your horny. It subsides, deal with it. Everyone gets horny, but it is a choice of what you WANT, but not NEED, to get over your ranging hormones.

But I have to love her ending argument, but I get so horny and it doesnt subside, so since I want sex I need sex to get over my horniness, fuck no! Stupidist thing I have ever heard come out of her mouth, and mind you she says a lot of stupid shit.

Then I went on to ask how do you know that all your partners are clean, she's say first one said he was a virgin, other was ONLY with max 3-ish ppl, and anohter one shes not too sure. Yeah this was just straight out of their mouths. She hasnt know any of these guys for long and yet she feels that she can trust these strangers words, instead of at least having them tested first.

No becuase they use a condom and they said they were clean, yep, that sounds like the proper way of doing it. That means SHIT, they could lie.

The only time you can feel secure about having sex with a person is either having them tested, knowing and trusting them for an extended period of time, and/ or having a loving caring open relationship in which you know what has been done in the past.

Like, fuck yea she did any of that. so I told her bluntly, I really dont want to be going to a funeral of a friend at the age of 37 for a reason dealing with sex becuase i know I'll be like yea you know i told you so. I probably wont even show up in this case or even to a hospital or respond to a desparate call. I told her I'm not repeating this, its the last time I'll say it to you and I will ignore every attempt you have to talk to me anything on this topic.

And i end the conversation, but please note when I have just finished a serious ass talk with you, do not start playing friendly, calling me names for friendly fun, cuz I wont be in the mood for it, especially just to break the tension. Th tension will go away when ready, does not need any extra help.

Take it off and let it drop...


Take it off and let it drop...
Originally uploaded by BidWiya.
There can be no rainbow without a cloud and a storm.
-John Heyl Vincent

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go. Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it....
-BidWiya

I feel crappy. As usual I heard unwated news, what people saw over the holiday break. I dont know why I'm still effected, I dont want to be, but I am. I feel so low and ugly (not physical appearence ugly, but as in unwanted.) I guess one can calling me an undecided waivering person....or simply emotional. I just feel hurt by indirect things that have nothing to do with me anymore, but I guess its just because I'm bad at forgetting. Really bad at forgetting. I remeber everything, small details of even unimportant things. I wish I was more forgetful, so I wont remember such events in my life. Not in the most upbeat mood anymore, which isnt all too hot because I have to be concentrating on so many other things right now. Bad timing completly, well any other time would have been bad, but right now is the worse. Anyways I'm done.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Fun At Work


Mini me
Originally uploaded by noqontrol.
So it's Sunday and I'm at work, but I'm having some fun. So far all by 12:10pm, these are the things that made us laugh:

1)Kyle Potter-Hey, is there anything interesting in the news?
Me-The guy who went to Iraq!
KP-Did he die?
Me-No..
KP-What the hell!

2)Me not being able to remember Kyle's name...I stood there thinking, what the hell is his name. So I called him Alex, then the girl Alex tu7rned to me and said Kyle, and I was like oh yeah. Called Kyle's name, and he went on about me forgetting his name.lol

3)Kyle P to Randy as he walked by, "Dude why do you smell like a girl?"
Randy and myself look up, and were like wtf and began to crack up. Randy then said"Why are you smelling me?" And Kyle try to defend himself by saying the sma=ell was strong and it remind him of girls at school, and asked him why he was wearing perfume. Randy then decided to say" Well, now we know Potter is gay!" and he went and retold the story to fellow associates.

So far so good.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Creative Start


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Originally uploaded by 泛泛 | Moving On Our Way.
So I'm thinking of ways that I can be more creative this year. All I've got so far is:

-School paper
-yearbook
-web design for relatives
-make mini movies
-photography; portraits and landscapes (cityscapes)
-drawing
-designing

Nothing much more then that. Oh but good news, Our Junior Boys Hockey Team won gold in Vancouver at the tournament...but when I was watching re-runs of the games ppl kept talking to me...why I have no clue. SHUT UP! I'm tyring to listen to the game, like holy SHIT...I couldnt concentrate on the game and I missed two important parts...grr. I hate when ppl talk when I'm trying to concentrate, I HATE it.

But whatever, Ciao